난 그걸보는게 좋았다.
길게 내뿜는 담배연기를 바라보던 반쯤 감긴 그눈이좋았다..
그 따듯한 눈빛이 좋아서 난
노래를 부르고 싶어했다..찬란한희망도
이렇다할 재주도 없던 내가 유일한 구원은
그녀와의 시간뿐..그렇게 사랑이 깊어갈수록
괴로워져갔다..군대...안정된직장....
무턱대고 널기다리게한다는건...사랑이란 이름에
횡포였어.만약 너에행복을 보장해줄수있는 사람
있다면..나만큼 아껴줄수있는 사람있다면.널보내야
한다고 내자신을 설득시켰어.그게..내사랑에 마지막
배려 라고,생각했어..
어느덧 너는 지쳐 갔었지...아무런 약속못하던내게..
그때 넌 눈물을 흘렸던가..나를떠나면서...그때 널
잡을수 없었던건...내자신이 미워서...비겁한 내
자신이..나도싫었기에..
가끔은 마음이 흔들렸지..속눈썹이 긴여자를보면...
하지만 내가 사랑했던건..그속의너의모습...내가널잊어주길
바라니..그렇다면..미안해...내모든 노래속엔..니가 있으니까
I liked the gaze of her half-closed eyes on the long stream of cigarette smoke I blew.
Because I liked that warm gaze I kept wanting to sing.
Without brilliant hope or special talent my one rescue was time spent with her.
As this love grew deeper I grew more troubled. But, a stable job.
Unintentionally making you wait violated what love stands for.
If there were someone who could guarantee your happiness
If there were a love that valued you as much as I do, I persuaded myself I'd have to release you.
I thought of that as my love's final attention
Eventually you grew weary, of me who couldn't make any promises
Did you spill tears then, as you left me
That I couldn't hold on to you then made me hate myself
Because I hated my own cowardice
But what I loved was your image inside
Do you expect me to forget you? If so, then I'm sorry
Since you're part of all my songs
Can you still not forgive me yet? Do you think that I threw you away?
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